Chaos Within My Thoughts

Looking deep into my eyes,

in the darkest corner of my mind

i'm caught up in circles of confusion

hovering around like haunted ghosts....

As the clock ticks faster than time,

while the devil devours fallen wretched lost souls

i know it ain't nothing new

I guess the fast hard knock life had me going

being outwitted, annihilated and superseded by

worst evil dark forces lurking in the shadows,

being taunted by the nightmares and hallucinations were

just like first instincts....

I should have seen the writings on the wall.....

to have come so far to end up going nowhere,

Like the distant memories dead, lost and forgotten in the wind...

I contemplate whether this my is fate, lot or destiny

or maybe another cross i have to carry all on my own....

i guess it took me too long to realise that these are obstacles and

circumstances we meet in life....

And there is a need for a higher cause to face and fight to the very end

our worst fears and challenges,

But no matter how hard we give our very best to try

We need the formidable supreme sovereign Savior,

who is the prerequisite in our lives our lord and master Christ Jesus

to redeem, liberate and transform us totally by breaking the chains

of bondage and the shackles of shame or disgrace, disappointments etc....